Dad

"Fathers are like snows. They make you cold, but once they gone you want them back"

Hey dad, thanks for dying, that was cool you know.. Dying before i had a single memory of you. It’s not like Im seriously fucked up by it or anything. Was it really that hard to watch your fucking weight so you could still be around today? You will never know how much pain you have caused me. I get it, you didnt choose to die, but to me, it’s like you just left me here. Do you fucking know how hard it is pretending like you mean nothing to me because everyone thinks I shouldnt hurt because I don't remember you? Do you know how fucking hard it is to have to see everyone fathers be proud of there kids at graduations or see my friends get in fights with their fathers and saying they wish they were dead? Like the one thing I wish more than anything is to be able to remember your smile, or your voice, but I have nothing. I hate you for dying. And then to people who say that their father means nothing to them and it’s as if they are dead, no, it’s fucking not. It’s not the same at all, cause at least you arent left wondering what your life could have been if he were alive. Fuck you dad. Just, fuck you. Why couldnt you just be alive :( Why can't I remember you… It’s not fair.. It’s not fucking fair dad… Please.. Just let me remember something… Please…

17th of June annually is a Father's day. The paragraph above taken from the blog of my old friend. I felt sorry, but I can do nothing except by just feels sorry. So people, do appreciate your father, celebrate him, not only on 17th July but everyday as well goes to your mother. Just, appreciate them while they're still alive. Have the desire to show you appreciation as they gonna die to tomorrow because you will never know what will happen to them tomorrow, or next week, next month nor next year. Thanks Abah for just being my father, my dad, a husband to my mother. Not more nor less. Thanks again.

Shows your appreciation,

M. Qarin Al Maduri