It has been years, since my mum was like "ya Allah, pandainya anak mama ni.." And it doesn't happen again this time, that she was all like "tak kisah, berapa pun kau dapat long, mama redha.." Seriously? I won't ever believe what she did just say this evening. I don't think she was really that pleased with my current result. I can hear disappointment in her voice, I can see regret in her eyes.. I wanted to make my parents happy, I wanted to make them proud, but fuck myself! I was too lazy, I kept playing around even spm was already around the corner back then.. bullshit, that word describes me well. Sorry mum, sorry dad, I'll do better next time, but not for spm of course.. and I really mean it this time.
And anyway, congrats to all 95's. We all did well, but not the best effort anyhow, so prepare yourself for the next struggles, obstruction; college life. And thanks to my supportive parents (which actually disappointed, I'm sure) and my friends for the words which slow down my heartbeat, calmed myself a little. I'm really grateful for having people like these around me..
Love,
M. Qarin Almaduri
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