Let go, move on

You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right neither. And you're tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you; it's okay, everything's gonna be fine.


And you know you have to be strong to fix yourself out, because there's no one else can fix you. But you're tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be saved. To be helped. But you know you won't be. But you're still hoping, and you're still wishing, and you're still staying strong and fighting. With tears in your eyes, you're fighting.

I'm also hate the things that happen right before I go to sleep every night. Every mistake I've ever made, every word that I wish I've never said, every moment that made my cry rushes through my head. And all I can do about it is cringe and pretend it all never happened. Whatever it is, please forgive me for my every single mistake please.


And maybe that's why letting go is so important in life. So you'll never ever hurted much more than you deserves, feels more sad than you should to. Because everytime you let go off something, they'll come over something that as good as or even better that the thing that you let off go. So it's now the time for me; learn to let go although it's hard, stay positive and move on.




I'll healed again,
M. Qarin Al Maduri