Resolution

It's so cold here at my place. Every sidewalk is covered by snow. No room to walk, just snow along the sidewalk. Okay, cut it out. Am in Malaysia, there's no possibility that the weather will be snowy. Haha :D

Some people may say that it is too early to talk about new year, new resolution. But for me it's not, you can always think about your new resolution anytime. It's you resolutions so it's yours to think about it aye? The only resolution that I had in my mind is I want to study as hard as I can next year, and make every people that relates to me proud, as proud as they can be.

People change, feelings fade, and the outer world is just, too scary. I open myself towards changes and then I realized that I changed too much and that is not right. Am gonna be a senior next year, last year of highschool of course. Am not ready, not even a little part of me is ready to face the hard year, when am gonna sit for the SPM examination. But I really have this determination to study hard for the exam. Seriously.

I like the idea of having true friends and yes, I regret the fact that I never did appreciate their existence way back when. I'm full of insecurities. I wish I could carry a gun and bring it where ever I go. At least people will get scared of me, then only they will show some respect but nah, I'm not a soldier to be that tough. 

Things didn't flow according to my plan. Life didn't move to the way I expected it to be. It has been the hardest 365 days in my life. 2011, as expected, disappoint me- making it harder for me to excel in studies. I'm matured enough to think about future, arranging plans and making sure that I'm ready to face the bumpy road of life. Being like other people think I am is the only protection I could use right now, just to avoid myself from choosing the wrong path of life.

But am grown up aye? I can think things properly, better than when I was form one or younger. And I also realized that everything's in this life won't last forever. So if things are going good, enjoy it because it won't last forever. And if things are going bad, don't worry. It can't last forever either aye? Please that you're agreed, hehe :D

One thing for you guys. The most important thing in life is mentality. Then we can adapt to adversity. You also have to take responsibility for every single one of your doings. That is the biggest strength we must have in ourselves. That is also why people nowadays failed in their life, beyond any sort of money, any sort of attitude, we must have mentality strength. That is the biggest attitude.


Nothing much to talk about,
M. Qarin Al Maduri