Hopes

I've been realized these for so long and it seems lonely has been my only friend. My fragile heart, it has been done so wrong. Just wondering if I've ever healed again. I think my life is just gonna be same, and stay the same forever although I can see people around me and the society itself is changing.

Day to day I dream that I can break the chains that bind me for so long, maybe since I was born. I gonna make the happiness find me, and leave the past behind me. I no longer want this kind of life, so dim and dark path is all I can see toward my future. I want a brighter future, I want it to look as clear as the crystals.

I hope a different tomorrow begins as soon as possible, I wanna meet the new world that's waiting because I know it mine for the taking. I hope I can make it. Today I learnt that yesterday happened an gone. I also learnt how to leave it where it is. There's no worth about reminding the pasts that hurts you so much. I know that I've done wrong all-time in my life by doubting on things that I know I can never make it.

I know I can't change what's done, I can't go back in time but I can change the hurt feelings or mend the broken hearts by learn from the mistakes I've done and hope I will never regret things as much as I do now. Life is to short to keep regretting and I learning now to leave the pasts and forget it. I realized that we only have one life to live, so I better make the best of it. One thing that I can only hope is, things may get better. 

Am changing myself. Please help me,
M. Qarin Al Maduri