Eid

"A kid's raya is all about new songkok, new clothes, kuih raya and duit raya." -Peyyo

It is one of the best thing as I can still remember the Aidilfitri when I was 6. When every single of the family members gathered at grandma's house; we cooked almost everything together. The dodol, lodeh, rendang, ketupat, kuah lacang and stuffs. We played almost every single type of mercun together without worries, we talked almost about every random things on our mind until the dawn-prayer-call sounds. But all of those things changed now. Every single one. We never really cook things together like we used to back then, we never really talk as much as we used to, we don't even sees each other and we don't even play any mercun this year. Any. And the worse part is, I never realized when did these things changed, who did change all of those and why it is changes. And what is worse than that? I've never ever asked for such things to happen. Yeah, they all change without my permission and my willingness. 

I miss that moment when Aidilfitri is one of the mostexciting day of the year for me, I miss that moment when I get too damn excited every time raya is coming, I miss that moment when I don't have to think about anything else like exams during the raya holiday and I miss that moment when raya is all about happiness. I mean.. money, foods, relatives.. aren't they are part of happiness? Y'know, when no one actually feels depressed during raya because of exams, jobless life or things. I just want the old feelings, the old same environment every time the eid is coming. And for that to happen, I know it is like.. "No, it will never happen!". Yeah, it won't happen.

Well, its just maybe the eid lost it sparks years ago when Kad Raya replaced with digital version of Kad Raya through Facebook and Twitter, or maybe only via phones. Or maybe, it is because the Ramadhan itself that we don't celebrate delightfully as we celebrate Syawal. Or maybe.. I just don't know what's the thing that actually turn out my eid this recent years to become this way; lamer, less exciting and I don't feel like celebrate it again anyhow years after. I just don't.. So I will just keep those good moments, good thoughts of raya in the closet of memories.. Till' then..

Happy eid Mubarak everyone,

M. Qarin Al Maduri