Desperate

Life don't treat me so well nowadays. Some friendship problemo, non-stop homework, pain on my leg and others. Am too desperate to find a way to make myself much happier, or at least a little bit happy. I get used to be in the situation when people say "Please come, the event won't be interesting without you" but they never knew that am I happy or not when I come. Although am always make people laugh by my joke, am actually hurt deep inside because am not happy as themselves are. 

Many people want happiness but they don't want pain. But, did anyone realize that they will never ever be a rainbow without a little bit of rain? The same situation goes to when everyone wanted to know the truth but none of them want to be honest. Oh please, people can't be called people nowadays. They are like alien that came out of nowhere, wearing a human facial-mask and then act like they are a human being. Even people around me act differently now, they are not the one I know when first I met them. The nice guy become bad, and the bad guy.. much evil.


For my friends that feels like am isolating them, feels like they are nothing to me, please stay longer, please because I'll need you. Just wait for the time to come. For whoever who related to me and reading this right now, please understand how rough and hard things going right now. I just want to let you know that things will get better, I promise. Keep holding on just a little bit longer. I know you feel that like nobody cares. You're wrong, stop denying it. I care, otherwise I wouldn't post this. Even if you don't want to hold on, please put your trust on me. Please


I just realize, PLEASE is a big word,
M. Qarin Al Maduri